sara davies: Solo Performance

Yellow Suitcase Project Exhibition October 2013

Doctor Will See You Now

Photo by Salvo Toscano

AOB Item 1: Fragments

Photo by Salvo Toscano

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In The Quiet Times, Reading Fringe Festival July 2013

Photo by Zuloo Productions for Reading Fringe Festival

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AOB Item 1: Fragments, Strength In Numbers Arts Festival June 2013

Photos by Nick Gilmore for Strength Collective.

Initially, there is joy. And that joy is always there – it never goes away. It’s just that it becomes cloudy; foggy; out of reach.

The parts of you that were you slip away one by one, until you are hollow. But you don’t notice.

Your soul begins to ever so slowly fossilize, and a numbness creeps over you. But you don’t notice.

Gently, by stealth, you are trapped. Backed into a corner. Held hostage by the one thing that brings you joy. But still, you don’t notice.

And all the while the world continues to turn. Days become longer and nights shorter. Flowers bloom and birds sing. The sun shines and plans are made. Everyone is moving. Moving forward. Except you. You are standing still.

I was standing still

Inside was a weight, pushing down on my thoughts and my freedoms. All that was left were fragments: pieces of the person I used to be.

Those pieces don’t fit together anymore. I realise that now. And it scares me.

I have tried to force the pieces back together, but as soon as one piece is fixed it cannot be removed. I have to work round it. I hold the pieces of me in my hand, so determined to make one just one piece fit. But eventually, I have to let that piece go, in favour of the whole.

There are gaps. Sometimes there is a gap that I just can’t fill.

And I honestly don’t know if I ever will.

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AOB Item 2, ]performance s p a c e [ December 2012